Things That Matter

Is the name of the song I'm listening to right now. It's by Rascal Flatts.

"Sometimes I try take on this world by myself. Thinking I got all the answers; don't need anybody's help. When God was right there waiting for me all a long, to fall my knees: surrender all. Things that matter - things that don't."

Is the last little bit of the song. And honestly, sounds a lot like me. I do try to do things on my own.

I mean sure, God is there and he loves me, but I have trouble letting him lead my life, instead of my leading it myself. I forget I'm here for Him, and not for me. That this life isn't about me, it's about Him, and His plans for me, and His people.

I few times I've tried to give myself up - and every time I some how end up doing my own thing on my own time how I want to do it.

I believe in Him, but I don't let him lead my life.

And I should. It's hard though. Really hard. I'm only 15, for goodness sake, what am I suppose to do? Are people really going to listen to what I have to say? Do I even have the guts to tell people? What's my calling? What am I suppose to do with my life?

People expect you to know by know what you plan on doing. But I don't know. I know what I like - photography and writing - but is that what I'm suppose to do? Is that what I want to do?

I know dance isn't going to by my career, I'm not near good enough. I love it an all, and it's a nice hobby, but not a future career (though that would be cool).

But what does God want? How do I find out? I don't hear him. Some people claim they can actually hear him, but I don't. So how do I know the answer?

Why do I feel so lost sometimes?

Why do I feel like I'm just going throw the motions?

Is that what teenagers do? Go through the motions? Until we're old enough to really do something?

What if I don't want to wait to make a difference?

Change needs to happen now, so why should I wait for other people to start it for me?

Just .. what to do ..

No kidding

It's been forever since I blogged. It's sad.

Wow ... I just realized ... this will be my last post for 2009 ... ever ...

No pressure to make it special or anything ...

Have a Happy 2010 :)

My Life is the Definition of Busy

Sooooooo much has happened since I was able to write last. I have a feeling this might be a long post. I met Jacynne, I got sick, I went to Chicago, I turned 15, and a bunch of other cool stuff (ok, getting sick is NOT cool).

I'll go in order. First things first - I met Jacynne.

Yep, I actually met her.

I even gave her a hug.

It was really exciting, to say the least.

So I spent the from Friday till Wednesday with Jacynne. Friday she came over to my house and from there we went to my dance rehearsals and performances for a Christmas program downtown. We then went to the Yuletide Harbinger Bash which is a lock in with my youth group. It would take too long to explain it all, so all you really need to know is that it was tons.o.fun.

I had some more performances on Saturday night, but other than that we mostly slept. Sunday I went to her Grammie's house, and the following Monday we went to Chicago, which was also ton.o.fun.

Then on Tuesday I turned 15. Which was, of course, really cool.

Beth turned 11 today.

And really, I don't know what to write about. so ... I'll write later.

Sorry for taking so long. My life = busy.

-Kate

It Reallly Is December

It doesn't feel like December - not here in the middle of the mitten anyway (aka MI). There's only been 1 snow fall, and that was itty bitty little flakes that melted when they hit the ground (and that was Nov. 30th too).

I can't bring myself to believe it's December - by golly, it hasn't even been that cold! It was 50 degrees (Fahrenheit) yesterday. I kinda wish it would snow, but I don't mind it not being cold. It just doesn't feel like December, and it's odd to listen to Christmas music when I can see green grass out my window. The only thing that suggests it's winter is the fact that it gets dark out at 6pm.

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Well, I never finished this post, and when I woke up this morning (for I was writing the post yesterday in little bits and pieces) they was snow on the ground - not melting. So ... I guess it really is December. But if I don't look out any windows, I wouldn't be able to tell. The sky is really white though, and not blue. It's white, like when it's snowing.

So... I guess it really is December.

*sigh*

Tis The Season

It's almost Christmas yet again. I can't believe it! I don't know where the year 2009 has gone, but it's definitely ending really fast. When it's almost Christmas, it means it's even closer to being my birthday! But something amazing happens before that...

I meet the one and only Jacynne C.
(please say her name like you'd say the name Jason - yes, her name is Jacynne/Jason. Yes, SHE is a girl. and yes, I like her name)

Jacynne is my pen pal from Alaska. We started writing a few years ago - our homeschool groups got together and everyone in MI (who wanted one) got a pen pal from AK, and vise versa. I'm pretty sure Jacynne and I are the only people still writing to each other.

See, we are more than just pen pals - we're friends. I would say it took longer for us to be friends, considering we couldn't see each other. But the more and more we talked, the more and more we became friends. Best friends, I'd dare say.

There's a song from the Muppets, and one of the lines is "There's not a word yet for old friends who've just met" and I think that describes Jacynne and I quite well. We're old friends, yes, and we haven't met...yet.

But we will... in exactly 5 days.

Yes, you heard me...


I MEET JACYNNE IN FIVE DAYS!!!


I'm just a little excited...

Ok, I lied.

I'm pretty much FREAK.ING.OUT right now at the thought of meeting her at last! Talk about dream come true!

And we have so much planned! We meet on the 7th - her family is coming to dinner. I can.not.wait for that day. Then on the 10th she's coming with me to ballet and pointe and taking classes. She is then sleeping over at my house. The next day I have a Christmas dance performance, which she's coming to watch. From their we're going to the Yuletide Harbinger Bash, which is a lock in with the youth group I attend. (I'll explain more about that on a future date.) Saturday morning we will go our separate ways and sleep! I then have to get up that afternoon to perform the Christmas performance again. Then I go back home and sleep till Sunday. Sunday morning I'm going to Jacynne's grandmother's house and spending the night there. We will leave early the next morning (if you haven't been following, it'll be te 14th) and head to Lansing to catch our train to Chicago! We'll stay there all day (we plan on going to the American Girl Doll store) and come home late that night. I'll sleep over at her grandma's house again, because we'll be back late and I'm sure my dad wouldn't want to have to drive to Lansing. From Jacynne's grandmother's house we will head to my house - because by then it will be my birthday!

I'm not exactly sure how my birthday is going to work, but some how Jacynne and my friend Becca (and maybe my friend Lauren, if she can make it) are coming over (and some how I'm dancing from 4-6) and we're having a little party with food and cake and presents! Jacynne will sleep over...

And then I don't know what else happens!

Wow, I wrote a lot. I hope that all makes sense...

Anyway, I'm really excited =) I also hope you all had a wonderful Thanksgiving and a nice break from normal life, and I'll be blogging soon.

Much love,
Kate

It's Thanksgiving

And I thought I'd play along with all the other blogs I've read and tell you what all I'm thankful for today =)

I'm thankful for coffee in the morning. Without it I probably couldn't do anything.

I'm thankful for words, because without them I wouldn't be very good at expressing myself.

I'm thankful for the backspace button on my keyboard, because I make a lot of mistakes. I wish there was a backspace on life sometimes, but sadly someone hasn't invented that yet.

I'm thankful for mini butter sticks, because they're so darn cute! They're only 4 tablespoons and not 8, and boy! are they cute!! =)

I'm thankful for my family, because they love me so much. And the care a lot. And Mom makes dinner (most) everynight, and Dad makes breakfast for me (most) mornings, and William's smile brightens my day, and Clay just makes me laugh, and Beth's beautiful face just makes everything better, and Dave (who isn't really related but for me he's the uncle I don't have) can cook amazing food, and tell funny stories and make me smile on bad days. That's what uncles are for, ya?

I'm thankful for friends, because without them I'd get a little sick of my family after every day with them. They're my outlet, my friends are. They're my support in hard times, and I'm theirs (I think...). Without them I wouldn't know what do to sometimes, and my life would be boring, to be honest. I don't know what I would do without friends.

I'm thankful that I live in a warm house and that Dad has job(s) so we make money so we can eat food. I like food ... a lot. I'm pretty sure I couldn't live without it.

I'm thankful for the Wii, as bad as it sounds. It is quiet fun to play, to be honest. We're actually playing it right now. Family time! Like in the walmart or target commercials (I can't remember which) and they say "Family time costs less at walmart (target)!"

I'm thankful for pumpkin cheesecake, because it's so dang good! It tastes like pumpkin pie, yet has a cheese cake hint to it, and it's like pure heavan! nom nom nom ...

I'm thankful for many, many more things that if I wrote them all down you wouldn't bother reading it all. So I'll end my post here, asking you what's ONE thing (or more than one) that you're thankful for this thanksgiving.

Have a GREAT holiday!

-Kate

She is Me

She doesn’t like to hurt people, yet she stands up for what she believes in.

She doesn’t like to stand out in a crowd, but will try to get her point across.

She has firm beliefs, but willing to listen to other ideas and ponder them. Understands that everyone is different and excepts that.

Unsure about her future, so just trying to get through life one day at a time.

Loves to smile and laugh and brighten other people’s day.

Wants to be someone children look up to and adore, and someone the elders are proud of.

Want's someday, to find true love, but waiting because she knows that’s what God wants.

Wants people to like her for who she is, and what she believes, and how she thinks, and not by looks alone.

Has dreamt before about being famous, but pretty sure that isn’t going to happen, and is ok with that.

Just wants to be happy with her life, yes realizes her day dreams about the future are a little farfetched, but it’s ok to dream.

Doesn’t try hard enough sometimes, and isn’t perfect. Needs to work on some things, and knows it.

Needs to realize life isn’t all about her, but it isn’t about everyone else either. It’s about God, and what He wants for her life. She needs to trust Him with her life, and knows that’s hard to do.

She tries to be happy every day, but some days just aren’t that great.

She is thankful she is where she is in her life right now, and wouldn’t change a thing about it.

She loves life.